i don't know what's happening.
there use to be a happy ignorance surrounding it
keeping it at bay
now i'm conscious and can't decode the meaning.
people had to jog my memory of the upcoming event
now it pops up without warning
reminds me of its visit.
it doesn't bring dread or fear
i'm just curious why it decided to stay surface
maybe to remind me to step on the pedal
take no shorts or prisoners
to grab this world in a choke hold
think big go hard have fun
but those are the positives
the inspiring.
there is a dark side
and i purposefully do not look at it .
if uneasiness comes then it comes
no need to put energy into negative.
i like positive and the color pink
with yellow being a close runner up.
in the meantime and for all time
i'll continue to ask questions
that will lead to answers and more questions
this debate will last until the last breath
an ongoing conversation until it arrives disappears
then returns a year later
and the year after that
and the year after that
and the year after that...
